Its December. And in December here it gets cold and it never seems to fail, about this time is when I start to feel like something is missing in my life. I curled up into a ball last night on the couch and watched a couple movies by myself. I would like to say that I don't have a man in my life because I am too picky but that isnt whatit is at all.
I just don't want to settle. I believe that there is one man out there for me, one man that could make me smile every day I wake up next to him for the rest of my life, without him having to say a word. I have seen so many people get married, have kids only to be divorced within 5 years. When I get married it is going to be once, one time. I have people asking me all of the time (mainly my family) when are you going to settle down and have a family?
Up until about a year ago that never crossed my mind. I loved to travel with my friends, to do what I wanted to never have to answer to anyone. I had MY life. But I have grown up. Things that were important to me 2 years ago, 5 years ago etc.. just are not important to me anymore.
Last night I was talking to a man I love deeply. He asked me if I was "ready" for all of that, for love for everything. I believe I am, I know I am. I often wonder about time and how it affects certain aspects of my life. Or when things happen for a reason. I believe that all things happen for a reason, I believe in having no regrets. Things that happen in life good or bad have an impact that will forever change the outcome of certain things. Even if it is good or bad atleast you know either way. Same thing with emotions. I believe that emotion shown whether its good or bad is good. IT shows how passionate some people are and how much they care about what is making them so emotional.
I never search for love, I have always been a believer that Love will find me. It did and of course I had to find a reason to screw it up lol In anycase, I know I have done what I have to make up for what I did, I have given all of my heart, my whole soul and what happens will happen. Till I know what that is...
Love and Light to all
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There is nothing wrong with being picky i am the same way. they are alot of men out there u can be picky nothings wrong with that.I am so picky about character not looks but the way they walk and how they think but like my mom said i will never find a woman exactly like me because im so diffrent.